Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Hi

I'm horrible at keeping updated. Hopefully we will be able to get internet at home soon. We are working on that right now, but it's really expensive and there is only one company that works with the americans here in Germany. They can charge so much because they know americans will pay for it. I am morally apposed to giving them my business for this reason. So, Hans has to call around to some German places and see if anyone can give us internet even though we live on post. We'll see. Hopefully we can succeed because Eva is getting to the age where she doesn't sit still long enough at the library for me to read my emails let alone respond to any.

Things here are good. We are getting excited to go to Utah for a visit in July. We arrive on the14th and leave on the 28th. We will be bringing Hans' relative with us. He's a young single guy who speaks good english. He's almost done with pharmacy school. He's really nice and I think he'll really love Utah.

Eva is slowly learning how to crawl, but she mostly still rolls everywhere to get where she needs to go. She also just got her first tooth this week. It's still not in all the way, but you can see and feel it now.

Hans is gone for the next month doing some kind of field training. It's been really hard and it has only been two days. I think it's because I know this is what it will be like when he's in Iraq. I think it just hit me really hard last night when I realized he wasn't coming home for dinner. I just started to bawl. But, looking down at Eva made me stop because I know I have to be strong for her sake. Hans does a lot for our little family and it's hard when he's gone because there's a big void. I feel for him. He misses Eva already. I do get to talk to him on the phone though, which helps. Hopefully this time will pass by quickly. The military seems to like to get the family prepared for deployments by taking their spouses away before they even deploy for 15 months...you know...just to get you used to the idea of having them gone. I'm sorry. I must sound bitter. I'm really not, I just am going to miss him a great deal when the time comes.

Sorry for the venting. I feel better now. Love you all! I'll post pictures when I can.

Lindsey

7 comments:

Papa Doc and the Duke said...

You are a strong woman and I'm sure that you will be watched over in every way while Hans is away -- this month and later on. Don't forget to seek the Lord's blessings and He will give you the peace you need. Make sure that you receive a priesthood blessing before Hans is deployed -- it's obvious that he should get one, but you should ask for one, too. (And maybe even little Eva could use one as well.)
I'm glad to hear that Eva is still alive and doing well after our conversation yesterday. :)
I'm glad you have posted this. It will help others know what's going on with your life and it always helps keep us somewhat connected even with all the space in between.
I love you!
Mom

chelsey said...

Hang in there sweets! The sun'll come out tomorrow....
We'll keep you all in our prayers.

Team Clark said...

Hi Lins -
I'm sorry you have to go through this by yourself all the way over in Germany. I wish we could be near you to be with you and help you. It must be really hard to have him gone as much as he is. I'm glad you have Eva, though - you two ladies can stick together.
I can't wait to see you in July - it will be so much fun to have you here.
Take care! We'll be thinking about you -
Amy

Lokodi said...

Thanks guys. It's nice to hear from you. Amy, you will have to get used to Adam being gone with this new job huh? I'm really happy for him though. It seems like a good opportunity. I can't wait to see you and the new baby.

Lins

Mike and Adrianne said...

Lindsey,

I'm really sorry that you have to be home alone with Eva now and also later for a year. You are a great mom so you will be ok. I agree with mom that you should get a blessing.

Isaac just got his first tooth this week too! Way to go Eva!

Jess and Jen said...

Hi Lindsey! It's good to hear about what's going on in your life. You guys are troopers for what you're doing. We're excited to meet Eva when you guys come out. I think my girls will love seeing Eva, Willy, and Ike!

Jess

Lachelle, Rob & Eliza said...

Hey Lindsey! I loved catching up on your blog. Eva is adorable! Good luck with Hans being gone. I hope you have a good ward there to help support you while he is deployed. We'll be praying for you!